Crying Sad Clown

The sad news of the death of Robin Williams this week has made me think a lot about the suffering that may go on behind a clown’s mask. Many Swans suffer the effects of the abuse they’ve experienced in the privacy of their own heads. And the person they project to be may not at all be the broken person they are on the inside. In fact, many of us may be perceived as quite funny people; always ready with a sarcastic remark or a witty retort. But how many of use use humor to deflect from the pain we are carrying?

Robin Williams And The Black Dog

From all the news items that flooded my news feed it was very clear that Robin Williams had been battling depression for many years. It is so sad to learn that one of the funniest and most generous souls on the planet suffered so indescribably. And that he was unable to find the solutions he needed to stay alive. The World Health Organization describes depression as a Black Dog.

Although I understand that depression is a condition all on its own, I think that many Swans can relate to the bad days that this video describes. Maybe we don’t have Black Dog Days, but we certainly have Ugly Duckling Days.

Getting The Help We Need

As much as anything I think Swans need to realize that they do not need to suffer in silence, or alone. Speaking out about our experiences, finding support from loved ones and fellow Swans, and writing about our feelings are all ways in which we can take control of the Ugly Duckling Days. That way we can learn to feel more comfortable with our Swan wings.

This website is only one resource of many available. And, please, if you are feeling you are in danger of someone else, or are thinking of hurting yourself do contact the services that are available to help you (find some useful numbers here). Find out what works for you, and get the help you need. This healing journey is different for us all. So follow your heart.

A Little Spark Of Madness

Oh, and while journeying your Swan Path, don’t forget to hold on to that little spark of madness that helps you live! I will leave it to the great man himself to tell you more about that:

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Having gained experience while working for a variety of European non-profits, I am proud to now work with SwanWaters. My connection with the website is not only professional. I am glad to tap into my personal experiences to help those who are living in toxic relationships whether with parents, partners or in their professional life. We need to make the world more aware of the devastating effects of emotional abuse and help more people on their way to heal and thrive.

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