‘Bodies in the Basement – A Serial Story for Survivors of Abuse’ is a chronicling of 3 years of deliverance, liberation and recovery from an abusive marriage.
I find myself typing about PTSD, and how it gets to turn a funny, loving, and positive person, into a blubbering fool who is ready to just give up.
In all our articles about healing and recovery we talk about finding balance. We have all found ways to find balance and grounding, that help us with the triggers, the painful memories, the guilt and the self-sabotage.
PTSD really is a normal response to trauma. In this PTSD podcast Aubrey and Monkey talk about everything from what it is, to how it can manifest.
When feeling anxiety we can't understand where the fear is originated, or differentiate between fake and real threads. Everything becomes life or death
When living with an abusive partner, your “fight or flight” response is always at a heightened state, keeping your brain in a constant mode of anxiety. So it’s no wonder we get sick more often
In my experience it has been far harder to deal with the Flying Monkey, than with the actual abuser(s). I felt far more confused, hurt and unbalanced after encounters, than I did for example in the aftermath of no contact.
I decided to do something very different. I made a list of all the reasons I had for working so hard at my recovery.
Does it sound weird that I am now finding pride in my history of abuse? Why though? Why would I not be?
That’s what happens when you spend your days in an emotional foxhole, trying to anticipate another person’s moods and make sense of crazy