As you walk this road recovery, know that it’s perfectly fine to have those moments of mourning. You lost something and it was huge. Grief is normal
The target spends so much time living for the abuser, trying to anticipate every need and whim, the core of who they are becomes hidden, it’s identity theft
Isolation is a typical tactic of the abuser. It is also one of their best weapons. You become more reliant on him or her for companionship and connection.