That’s what happens when you spend your days in an emotional foxhole, trying to anticipate another person’s moods and make sense of crazy
Remember that when you are dealing with your abuser you will need to have a clear idea for yourself of what you consider a “winning” outcome.
Fear is an emotion of negative influence and the sooner you learn to push past the fear and recognize it for what it is, you will find new peace.
You must look at the dissolution of the relationship as the beginning of a journey, not a destination. One of the first skills to learn is the “gut check”.